Hmm...thinking&thinking

did i appericiate the time in msia?
yes?no?
i only left 2 week plus
but..
im still wasting my time here..
hmm..
.....
sometime if u expect too much..
and it dint happen...
or satisfied..
it make u dissapointed..
i think..
its time to change..
since thing had change..
i wont ask for more...
anymore...

tuesday..
hungry...
imsomnia..
12.30am..
so it is wenesday dy..
hmm..

sometime in msia..
i still feel...
cold..
sigh..
i need some warm feeling..
where shud i get it..
where..?
home..?
friend..?
nah....
i jz need the warm feeling..
from u..
but ur style..
is complicated..
the more i want..
the more u reject..
the more i reject..
the more u want..

big big sigh..

dont blame on me..
when i change..
once i change....
it is too late to be sorry..
to be scared..worry..
to be sad..hurt..

plz dont make me change myself..
dont make other say im bad..
or what..
im sirious..

hmm..
sometime..
thing happen..
but i have to be bad..
n ppl really think im bad..
they dont understand what i am doing..
they dont understand my feeling..
hmm..
yaya im bad....
but do u know..
everytime..
at the same time...
i m feeling..
guilty..
dissapointed..

it is really complicated..
i really donoe how to let u know how it feel..
hard...
moody..
dissapointed..
mad..
guilty..
not guilty..
guilty..
argg..
jz donoe..
how to express it..
hmm..

ilufnbrf